Wednesday, June 30, 2010


Everyone in life has motives to why they do and say things. In my life I try to check myself daily on why I do and say certain things. There have been numerous occassions over the past years where I wanted to pick up the phone or write an email telling someone what I really thought about their actions and heartache they have caused. However, when I sat and thought about the reasoning behind it, I knew it was not right and my motives were not pure. As I have said before, I am not miss perfect nor do I claim to be. I have done and said many of things in my life that I completely regret and hope to keep those closet doors closed forever. I truly feel the more I want to do what is right through the eyes of our Lord the harder my walk becomes. What I find extremely amusing is the fact that other people love to tell others why someone is doing something- Like they really know! I am learning not to share with people about what I am doing in my life as there is always a critic. I could go on my soapbox for hours regarding this topic but I will spare you. No wait! One more thing- when we sit at the judgment seat of heaven we will be questioned about our motives. If you think of the latter that will keep you in check.

Monday, June 28, 2010

One Month

from today we will be boarding a plane to one of my favorite places of all...Guatemala. My eyes grow heavy just thinking of holding the beautiful children in the orphanege. I have a few photos of Carson's birthmother. As I walk the streets of Guatemala its not uncommon for me to look at every lady that passes me by...and wonder.

Friday, June 25, 2010

I did not ask for your opinion

Why do so many people feel the need to give me their opinion when I talk about adopting again?. Lately more people are trying to tell me where to adopt, why I should not adopt from different countries, why I am not adopting an American baby., etc. I will listen to their opinion for a few minutes however after I heard enough I either turn them off, change the subject and/or tell them I really do not want to hear what they have to say. I am not adopting again to get others approval, I am not adopting again for the attention, I am not trying to be a celebrity, I am not adopting again to prove a point. Its been placed on my heart to adopt again. I understand I can not change the world however if I can change more than one life--that's what matters to me.

Thursday, June 24, 2010

He is with you-

click on the link below and then the orange play button above the lyrics to hear the song.
There's a time to live
And a time to die
There's a time to laugh
And a time to cry
There's a time for war
And a time for peace
There's a hand to hold
In the worst of these
In the worst of these

He is with you when your faith is dead
And you can't even get out of bed
Or your husband doesn't kiss you anymore
He is with you when your baby's gone
And your house is still and your heart's a stone
Cryin' God, what'd you do that for?
He is with you

There's a time for yes
And a time for no
There's a time to be angry
And a time to let it go
There's a time to run
And a time to face it
There is love to see you
Through all of this

He is with you in the conference room
When the world is coming down on you
And your wife and kids don't know you anymore
And he is with you in the ICU
When the doctors don't know what to do
And it scares you to the core
He is with you

We may weep for a time
But joy will come in the morning
The morning light

He is with you when your kids are grown
When there's too much space and you feel alone
And you're worried if you got it right or wrong
Yes he is with you when you've given up
On ever finding your true love
Someone who feels like home
He is with you

When nothing else is left
And you take you final breath
He is with you

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Wordless Wednesday

Monday, June 21, 2010


We had a family visit to Pearle Vision last Saturday for eye examinations. Carson and I have 20/20, Yea Baby! While Carson was patiently waiting his turn, he modeled most of the childrens glasses for us.

Tuesday, June 15, 2010


Work has been completely overwhelming. I am going in super early and getting done late. I guess that's par for the course when working in health care. Anyway, Carson's last day of school was today. I can not believe he is starting pre-k in September. For the summer, Carson will be going to art camp three days a week. The other two days he will stay home with Jonathan. I am looking forward to Carson having a break from school and "just" enjoying some summer time fun. If all goes well with the next few Doctor's appt regarding his ear, he will start swimming lessons at the end of the month.
As I have written before my sweet little boy has a wicked temper. He gets so mad so quickly. He will start hitting and calling names. Jonathan and I are really praying that its his age causing this crazy behaviour.

Sunday, June 13, 2010


Does anyone have any knowledge or experience with Morocco or Armenia adoptions?

Friday, June 11, 2010

The blues singer

Thursday night Jonathan and I went to see James Taylor and Carole King in Phila. We were eight rows from the stage. When James and Carole (our new friends ;) ) walked off the stage during intermission they walked right past us. Matter of fact I could touch them. WOW!!!
The concert started at 8:00pm with a 15 minute intermission ending at 10:30pm. It was a non-stop concert. They put on an awesome show... There were a few songs that hit home: Fire and Rain and You got a friend. Some of his songs flood my mind with memories- of course memories that hurt deeply and others that bring me joy. Overall, Jonathan and I had a great night together.

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

Wordless Wednesday

Monday, June 7, 2010

Happy Birthday MomMom

Today is my Mom's (Essie's) birthday. Carson is so in love with his MomMom. They have a very special relationship. They tell each other silly stories,they have special sayings, and always give each other eskimo kisses. MomMom, thanks for loving me so much. I am truly blessed to have a MomMom like you.... Happy Birthday!

Friday, June 4, 2010

Three years today

I held my sweet baby boy for the first time. More to come...

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

way back wednesday- last summer

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

Have you ever broken a world record?

Be Part of Breaking a World Record

On Saturday, June 5th, 2010 (raindate June 12th, 2010) at 11:00 am in the parking lot of Calvary Baptist Church on Route 9 in Ocean View, NJ, be a part of breaking the world record for attempting to yo-yo for 2 minutes. Yo-yos will be provided. No experience is required and there are no minimum age restrictions.

The purpose of the event is two-fold. The 1st goal is to break the world record which currently stands at 536 people simultaneously attempting to yo-yo for 2 minutes. The 2nd goal is to raise money for a mission trip to Guatemala in July which will involve 10 local residents of Cape May County. The money raised from the event will be used solely for building a home for an indigent family, providing wheelchairs to physically challenged children and adults who have no means of locomotion, and for feeding hungry families who have little to no way of supporting themselves financially.

The 10 individuals who will be traveling to Guatemala have been preparing for their trip by performing community service activities throughout the county.

The cost to participate is only $5 per person. Festivities include live music by Ray Seemans and The Prisoners of Love, food (BBQ), beverages, crafts, bake sale, moonbounce, facepainting, and more. Vendors wanted. Advance registration is encouraged, but not required. To register in advance or for more information, please email