Tuesday, June 30, 2009


Jonathan and I were busy fixing the horse fences, while Carson took off his shoes and socks and jumped head first in the mud puddle. Wow, is that boy fast!
I had my camera in my pocket due to taking photos of a horse I had for sale. I could not help but take a few quick photos of Carson jumping in the puddle before I hosed him down (wow, do I sound like a hick). He was covered from head to toe with mud however loving every minute of it.

Monday, June 29, 2009

The truth-

I struggle each and every day with the verse below. Its been many painful years however, I still can not fully forgive- Please pray for me!

June 27, 2009
When You Pray, Give God Your Hurts
by Rick Warren

"If you forgive others the wrongs they have done to you, your Father in heaven will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive others, then your Father will not forgive the wrongs you have done" (Matthew 6:14-15 TEV).

In your life, you will be hurt by others; sometimes intentionally, sometimes unintentionally. How you handle that hurt determines your happiness. When you bottle up hurt in your life and hold onto it, that is called resentment. If somebody hurt you years ago and you're still holding onto it, it will poison your life. For your own health and happiness, you must learn to forgive.

The Bible says forgive and be forgiven. In fact, Jesus says, "If you do not forgive others, then your Father will not forgive the wrongs you have done" (Matthew 6:15 TEV). They're inter-related. It reminds me of the story where someone told John Wesley, the founder of Methodism, "I just can't forgive that person! They hurt me too badly." Wesley's response was, "Then I hope you never sin."

For your own sake, let go of the past. If somebody hurt you, let go of it, release them. That's one of the values of prayer. It helps you unload. Forgiveness is the only way to get rid of the past. Forgive them and let it go. Get on with life. Forgiveness erases the videotape of that hurt memory that keeps playing over and over in your mind.

In my own marriage, the times I've felt closest to Kay, the times of most intimacy and oneness, have been times after a major blow up. We've worked the thing through, we've both confessed to each other and asked forgiveness, and then we pray together. The oneness that comes out of that kind of experience just can't be explained.

When we let go of our hurts and forgive others, we are reflecting the grace of our heavenly Father who forgave us and continues to forgive us. It means we've given God our love; we've given God our lives, and, in doing that, we worship God.

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Every picture tells a story-

Friday, June 19, 2009

Going back

to Guatemala in July. Oh, I can not wait! Stay tuned for more details...

Sunday, June 14, 2009

June 3, 2009

We celebrated Carson's 2 year forever family day on June 3, 2009. I can not believe how fast time has gone since we were united two years ago. The weeks leading up to our anniversary date I was filled with emotions and memories. I had emotions of pure joy and pure sadness. The joy comes from all the blessings Carson has brought me and my family. The sadness comes from deep within my heart for his birth Mother and Father. With that being said, I give God all the glory for bring Carson into my life. As I have written before the road was rough and the heartache was brutal but the gift (Carson) is a dream! I love my sweet baby boy so stinkin much he makes my heart sing. I can not get enough of him!

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Wordless Wedneday

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

I believe

Tonight while Carson and I were driving home from the horse stable he said: Mommy, Jesus is in my heart. Mommy, I believe in Jesus. The only thing I could get out were tears from my eyes. Oh- words can not describe how much I love my sweet baby boy!

Sunday, June 7, 2009

Happy Birthday MomMom!

Dear MomMom,
Happy Birthday! Thank you so much for all the love you give me. I really enjoy playing on the swing set, singing songs and doing puzzles with you. Thank you so much for being the best MomMom in the world.
I love you,
P.S. I can not wait to go swimming with you!