Wednesday, May 30, 2012

Wordless Wednesday

Tuesday, May 29, 2012

God's weather

As I was talking to my Dad today, I made a negative comment about how hot it was outside .  My dad replied with a quick response, "GretaJo you should not complain about God's weather."  Point made!

Monday, May 28, 2012

Happy Memorial Day

                                            My Dad served in the Army for a few years.  So Thank you !
The first time Greta Rebecca put her feet in the pool. 

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

I am going back

to Guatemala this summer. Oh I can not wait... Carson told me today he wants to go with me. I quickly replied, "Carson when you get a little older you can come with me." He said, "Mommy, I will be six in a few months."

Monday, May 21, 2012


On June 2, 2012 my eyed baby girl will be one years old. She is my dream girl!

Sunday, May 20, 2012

Its ok if...

you are pregnant
trying to get pregnant
or just had a baby

You do not have to keep it from me.  I am not a jealous person.  I am very happy for people and want nothing but the best for them.

Friday, May 18, 2012


A blog friend sent me an email asking,
"Gret  how are you making out since May 3"
I am praying all the time
   I am smoothering carson and cinderella
      Not talking
       withdrawn at times
talking with some people about it
   wondering why
thinking about the future (should we try ONE more time)
  Wondering what it will be like when I see my baby in heaven
taking one day at a time
I get pretty made at someone for taking years away from me that I can not get back
   trying to figure out if I should keep the stuff that I already purchased for the new baby or give it away
waking up in the middle of the night thinking it was just a dream
    watching my stomach go back to it normal size
worrying that something awful is going to happen to my children
asking Jonathan a million questions that he can not answer
  asking my Dad the same questions hoping he will have the answers

Thursday, May 17, 2012

better day

Carson had a wonderful day at school today.  YAY!  Little things like this makes me very happy.  One day at a time....

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

Ring Ring

Mrs. Payne.
Its Mr. S
Can  you please come and pick up Carson as he got into a pushing match with another kid?
I will be right there.
He is suspended for the day.

We were making progress and now we are back to square one-

Monday, May 14, 2012

My thoughts all day long

What if I only...
I could of...
I should of...
Why did I...

Thursday, May 10, 2012

what went wrong

One week ago today I lost my unborn child at 12 weeks and 6 days.  Its been a very emotional/painful week for me. 

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

This gum

Today Carson was given a piece of Extra gum (we will not say from whom).  As we were driving in the car Carson says, "Hey Mommy, this gum smells and taste like an old lady."

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

wordless wednesday