question

A blog friend sent me an email asking,
"Gret  how are you making out since May 3"
well....
I am praying all the time
   I am smoothering carson and cinderella
Crying
   Laughing
      Not talking
       withdrawn at times
        mad
talking with some people about it
   wondering why
thinking about the future (should we try ONE more time)
  Wondering what it will be like when I see my baby in heaven
taking one day at a time
I get pretty made at someone for taking years away from me that I can not get back
   trying to figure out if I should keep the stuff that I already purchased for the new baby or give it away
waking up in the middle of the night thinking it was just a dream
    watching my stomach go back to it normal size
worrying that something awful is going to happen to my children
asking Jonathan a million questions that he can not answer
  asking my Dad the same questions hoping he will have the answers