first time and not a fan

What a beautiful weekend! The weather was perfect. We spent most of the weekend outside doing "something". Saturday late afternoon we headed to Wildwood so Carson could enjoy some amusement rides. He is getting so brave. He went on the boats, spin wheel, spook house and the bummer cars. Saturday was the first time Carson went alone on the bumper cars. He want in circles and hit the wall the majority of the ride. It was too stinkin cute.





I have received numerous request and emails about being "friends" on facebook. I am not on facebook and I am not a fan of the product. I am sure there are pro and cons with the services however I have ABSOLUTELY no desire to be on there. So without going on a soap box or giving my personal reasons as to why I do not have a page please feel free to continue reading and commenting on my blog.

Sandra Bullock's statement

"You know, I have always felt like, just because a child didn't come from inside your body doesn't mean it's not your child, it just arrived somewhere else...There are so many children just waiting who need love and to give you love back a thousand times more and they're everywhere...You would be profoundly amazed at how many children are out there just waiting for you to love them."

I wish everyone felt this way...

A broken foot

Carson's Uncle Joey broke his foot the other day. He is having surgery on Friday in Virginia. The surgeons will be placing a screw in his foot. So needless to say he will be out of work for a few months. We are praying for a quick and healthy healing.

Back up plan and costume

Saturday night Jonathan and I went to see Back up plan starring Jennifer Lopez. The movie emulated my life (No I was not inseminated but I adopted a baby being single). I really think the writer knew my life story as he was writing the movie. Without going into detail however in the movie Jennifer had twin red head girls. Its a must see chick flick!!!

Its baseball season so we are at the baseball field watching my Dad's team at least once a week. Last week Carson told us that he wants to be a catcher because he would get to wear a costume. So now he is calling his baseball glove his catcher. He has two more years left until he gets to play T Ball. UH!

Is that thunder?

Tonight Carson yells from his bedroom, "Mommy, is that thunder?" I replied, No, its an airplane. There was silence for a minute than he yells with excitement Mommy, Its Uncle Joey, I hear him. Hi Uncle Joey, be careful up there.
Carson loves his Uncle Joey!

So comfortable with PopPop

Another week of treatment

Carson had another follow up visit with the physician today regarding his ear. The physician was not completely happy with the healing progress. So needless to say, Carson will be on treatment for another week. Carson told the physician his ear is still bothering him ( he was talking to her like a little old man).
I pray there is no long term damage.

The first time I met Carson I told my parents he was an old soul. The older he gets the more his old soul comes out.

A what?

Perforated Eardrum!! That's right the physician said, Carson has a perforated eardrum. Wow! He was in tremendous pain until he received pain medication. Now, he is high off of the medication and has gross, crusty, thick mucus coming from his ear non-stop. I have no idea how this happened....

playground fun

The conversations we are having...

I can not believe the type of conversations we are having at my home now with Carson. The other day Carson told us one of his "girlfriends" told him, if he did not play with her, he could not come to her party. Carson replied to the girlfriend, Ok, bye and walked away from her.

The next day, he told us Jesus died on the cross for him. When we asked how he knew that, he replied my friend Justin told me at school.
Then he proceeded to tell us about the nails that were put into Jesus hands. Wow, that was a deep conversation.

Thursday night we were driving home from the horse stable and Carson leans his hand out the window and says, God where are you? Tears filled my eyes faster than I could blink.

Oh how I wish he would keep his innocence.

Wordless Wednesday

Easter 2010

We had a very blessed Easter. The weather was great and spending time with family was even better. I love having my family over and sitting around the table talking and laughing. Sure, there are times where a comment or two is made that are off color however we have learned to roll with it. Nothing is ever said to be hurtful... Saturday evening we had our traditional English muffin pizza's and dyed Easter eggs. Sunday we went to church and then the family Easter egg hunt. My prankster Dad pulled a belated April fools joke and had us looking for eggs in a spot where they were NOT hidden. This year's golden egg winner was first time egg hunter, Shauna.
After the egg hunt we went to the Wildwood boardwalk and rode the rides.
Overall we had a wonderful day.

I can not believe I left you behind....

Friday night Jonathan and I went to a surprise party at the Four Season Hotel in Phila. with my cannon camera in hand. We enjoyed talking with friends and taking photos of the evening. After the cocktail hour we were escorted into a beautiful dining hall for a lovely meal. While being seated I placed my handbag and camera on the floor next to my chair. Those who really know me will understand the next part... It was 9:30pm and I had enough and was ready to go home (we had an hour drive). We said our goodbye and I grabbed my stuff and we drove home. The following afternoon I thought, OMG where is my camera? We searched the car and house numerous times. I looked in the car a dozen times hoping it would just show up. NOPE! Jonathan called the hotel a few times to no avail. I can not believe I could be so careless. What the heck!! I keep thinking of my camera and photos being with someone else. I am not the best photo taker however I was learning. I loved that camera. It had so many features on it that I just began to explore.
Whoever has my camera please give it back to me....please. In the meantime, I have to buy another camera. UGH!

You took my parking space at church

One day, a man went to visit a church, He got there early, parked his car and got out. Another car pulled up near the driver got out and said, " I always park there! You took my place!" The visitor went inside for Sunday School, found an empty seat and sat down. A young lady from the church approached him and stated, "That's my seat! You took my place!" The visitor was somewhat distressed by this rude welcome, but said nothing.

After Sunday School, the visitor went into the sanctuary and sat down. Another member walked up to him and said, " That's where I always sit! You took my place!" The visitor was even more troubled by this treatment, but still He said nothing.

Later as the congregation was praying for Christ to dwell among them, the visitor stood up, and his appearance began to change. Horrible scars became visible on his hands and on his sandaled feet. Someone from the congregation noticed him and called out, "What happened to you?" The visitor replied, as his hat became a crown of thorns, and a tear fell from his eye, "I took your place."

missing something...

I have never been a content person. I struggle and think about, what is life all about? Is this it? There has to be more. What am I missing?
I look at other people and wonder do they think the same way or do they have what I am missing? How do I know what they have if I am not sure what I missing? Its a daily struggle. Sure, I pray about it but not everyday or every week. Am I alone on this one?

Tickets are bought

and we are heading to Guatemala (for good) oops I meant in July for seven days. I feel like a little kid waiting for Christmas morning. July can not come fast enough... There are ten of us going to Guatemala to work with Bethel Ministries. We are building a home, doing wheelchair and food distribution, working at HP and whatever else the Lord has in store for us. My mind and thoughts are filled with the scenery of beautiful Guatemala. I can not wait...

First day of Spring and loving it...

Who is this little boy sleeping in the bed?

I love to watch Carson sleep. However the other morning, I looked at him and thought to myself...where the heck did my baby go? He looked so grown up laying in the bed. As I watched him sleep I was thinking how blessed I am to have him in my life. I can not imagine my life without being his Mommy.

My sweet little boy

is starting to become a little mouthy. I am hoping its a phase as he is spending most of dinner time in his bedroom. Why? Because, Carson is using words like, stupid, butt, hate and rude... All the words except butt are said on Charlie Brown which he watches all the time. So, did I create this little mouthy boy by letting him watch the show? Anyway, Carson and I had a talk about potty mouth and he is going to "try" not to use those words. We agreed that if he continues to use potty mouth words his Charlie Brown DVD's will be given to the trash truck driver.

Yes, that sweet little boy says potty words... hard to believe?!

some place to go

Carson thinks Joey flies every plane in the sky. Today as we were walking into the house after school a plane flies by. Carson yells, Uncle Joey come back and see me. Of course the plane kept flying. Carson dropped his head and said in a very sad tone, I guess he has some place to go.

In a rush

Yesterday morning I was running late (as usually) so I carried Carson down two flights of stairs to his preschool. As I began walking down the steps with Carson on my hip, he said, Mommy, you are hurting my wabee (his private part). The little girl in front of us said, to her Mom, he has a RABBIT!

What a beautiful Weekend!

Saturday we spent the majority of the day outside. We (I) stained the front porch while Jonathan was pointing out where I missed certain spots.LOL Jonathan and Carson raked leaves and cleaned up from the awful snow storm we had a few weeks ago. I did not want the sun to go down as it was so wonderful to be outside enjoying the warm weather and bright sunshine.

Sunday following church we went to the local nursing home and did some volunteer work with other church members. After our volunteer work, Shauna and I rushed to a baby shower and then home so Jonathan and I could go grocery shopping. Phewww what a day!

Besides books, puzzles and cars

Carson's other love is the Wii. His new "favorite game" is Mario Cart. We have to put time limits on the games as he will sit for hours and play.
I am not really complaining since I LOVE a good video game. HAHA

Did you see that Mommy!?

Saturday night we went to the circus in Philadelphia. We all enjoyed the two hours of entertainment. Carson kept saying, Mommy, did you see that? Look Mommy! This is so great! At the end of the circus Carson added, can we see it again, Mommy? I loved it!

Do not take your eyes off the wheel...

51 Things

Over the past few days I have thought about 51 different 'things' about me. They are in no special order.

1. I hated having red hair until I was older.

2. I love to hear people laugh.

3. I use to be afraid of the elderly.

4. I'm a Nursing Home Administrator (go figure!)

5. I use to drive a Yellow Lexus IS 300 (which I really loved)

6. I had three boyfriends in middle school with the name Tommy.

7. My Dad and I talk on the phone everyday.

8. We talk about everything and anything.

9. In grade school I had braces, glasses and red hair (aw, what a sight!)

10. I have a hard time trusting people.

11. Shopping for clothing and shoes is very difficult for me(size 00 and size 4
shoe)

12. Jonathan and I got married October 25, 2010 in Fla before a very romantic cruise.

13. Guatemala is calling my name.

14. Carson is a lifesaver

15. My Mom and I need to spend more time together.

16. I've owned horses for the past twenty five years.

17. Cruising is my favorite type of vacation.

18. I tried smoking a few times. (Yuck! I choked every time)

19. I wish I spent more time with my Grandparents (on both sides)

20. I am named after my Grandmother on my Dad's side.

21. Public pools make me ill.

22. Spending time with Joey is one of my favorite things to do.

23. He is the funnest brother I know...

24. I always desired a home full of kids.

25. I would love to adopt twins.

26. Age... I never tell people how old I am. How old am I? PLEASE DO NOT ANSWER!

27. I am the middle child. I have an older sister and a younger brother.

28. I am very thankful Carson has Tracey as an Aunt

29. I think eating is a waste of time.

30. friends...I only have a few really good friends.

31. AW, I can not stand to hear people chew their food.

32. I worked at Acme Super Market all through high school and college.

33. I think there is more to life...I am trying to find it.

34. The only reason I live in New Jersey is because of my family.

35. In big group settings I am very quite.

36. Most people think I am snobby but if I have nothing worth talking about I do not talk.

37. I dislike small talk.

38. My first puppy "ruffles" I brought home in a basket which was on the front of my bike.

39. After 10:00pm, I turn into the wicked witch of the west. I am working on it.

40. I love going to professional ice hockey games.

41. Rod Stewart is my favorite. I have seen him over a dozen times. (Tonight's the night)

42. There are parts of my life, I would love to do over again.

43. I dream about heaven.

44. I am not ready to go yet....

45. Jonathan and I had are first date in Cape May.

46. My Dad and I could sit and people watch for hours.

47. Power walking is my excerise of chose.

48. Sloowww walkers drive me crazy.

49. I love to hear Shauna's stories about her day at school.

50. I can not stand being cold and wet.

51. Do not buy me gifts...just spend time with me.

Carson keeps us laughing

Mom, Can you get me some meatballs?
Carson, we do not have meatballs.
yes, we do! We had them on Tuesday.
No we did not Carson.
Mom, be a good helper and get me meatballs.

Carson its time for your bath.
No Mommy, I am playing soccer
Carson two more minutes.
ok
Carson lets go. its time to get in the tub
No I amit Mom = (No I am not)

Mom, Look
Daddy gave me the little commode for the t.v.

Dad, Mommy is not being a good helper!

PopPop, I have number 100 on my face.
Really, Carson. For waht?
I am in the football pool. ( I have no idea)

Mommy, can I watch Charlie Brown's Balentines movie.

Hey Mom!

Tonight Carson and I were watching the Olympics when he said, "Hey Mom, I like Haley". My heart started beating a mile a minute and my eyes filled up with tears. Here is the conversation:

G: Really Carson?
C: Yes Hers name is Haley
G: Is she cute?
C: Hers wears glasses and colors beautiful.
G: Aw, Carson I love you.

The conversations we are having lately scares the heck out of me. Carson is growing up so quickly. I try to savor each minute with him.