While I was driving to pick up Shauna the other night I was having a conversation with the Lord about my struggles and fears regarding our upcoming trip to Guatemala. Yes, I have been there numerous times however not one trip has been the same. My heart has been broken and changed on every trip in different ways. But this time, I am struggling in ways I can not put into words. So, during the conversation the Lord revealed to me....Greta Jo, You applied for the job. I am your employer. You went through a series of interviews. I read over your resume' and you fit the job description. I offered you the job and you accepted it. Now go to work and if you have questions or need guidance seek and he shall find, ask and it will be answered, knock and I will answer. Well, my first day is August 3 at 4:30am, I am packed and ready to work for the Lord.
Sunday, July 31, 2011
Friday, July 29, 2011
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
Monday, July 25, 2011
Borders- happiness vs holiness
Jonathan and I went on quick dates to Borders bookstore for years. We loved to get a cup of coffee and walk around the store gathering books. We would skim the books at the table as we drank our coffee. Most of the time we would go our seperate ways in the store and meet back at the table with very similar books. We were very comfortable with short conversations regarding what we were reading. I also enjoyed sitting at the table and people watching. Those days are coming to an end as our local Borders store is closing. I will truly miss frequenting Borders with Jonathan.
I am struggling right now with happiness vs holiness. I am trying to understand the difference as a Christian. My prayer lately is that happiness vs holiness would be revealed to me. Does anyone else struggle in this area? Can someone please give me their view on the differences between the two?
Sunday, July 24, 2011
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
heartbreaking and meltdowns
Well, I started back to work today. I put on a good show however my heart was missing my children. I wanted to be with them all day. I had their cute little smiles in my mind as people were talking to me. There were many times today when I would be listening to people however my mind was focused on the children. I know this will pass with time but for now its an adjustment. I remember the first time I dropped Carson off at the daycare. I had to pull off the road as I was crying so hard. As I have mentioned before I am only working three full days during the week for a few months until my FMLA expires.
Carson has bible camp all week. He is loving it. However he is coming home very, very tired and having full meltdowns over everything. He is getting so dark this summer. We apply SPF 100 on him and he is still tans.
Greta Rebecca will be seven weeks old tomorrow. She is 9lbs 20 ozs and 21 inches long. Wow, my girl is growing... She is tracking people and objects with her eyes. Her smile lights up her cute face. She is making all types of cute sounds. Everyone is so in love with her.
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
Back to work already...
Tomorrow I am going back to work. I can not believe how fast eight weeks went. What the heck?
Monday, July 18, 2011
Sunday, July 17, 2011
Saturday, July 16, 2011
funny
Tonight we had white pizza with spinach
Carson: Mommy this is good but I do not like seaweed on my pizza.
Me: Honey its not seaweed its Spinach
Carson: Well, its seaweed and it needs to stay on the beach.
Pool conversations:
Carson: Mommy the pool is jealous
Me: Carson the pool is jealous?
Carson: Yea Mommy feel it.
I still do not know what he is referring to...
Dinner conversation
Me: Carson it's time for dinner
Carson: What's for dinner?
Me: Pasta and salad
Carson: I do not like salad
Me: Honey, you loved it the other night
Carson: No I am it
Kiss Cinderella
Carson: Mommy I just kissed Cinderella on the lips
Me: That was nice of you
Carson: Oh it was gross.
Me: Why was it gross?
Carson: because she is my sister and has girl lips
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
Monday, July 11, 2011
can not sleep
The dog in
The dog out
Checked on the kids
Turned off the alarm clock
checked emails
fed the baby x2
checked on the kids again
turned on the tv
turned off the tv
packed Carson's lunch
did a few loads of wash
folded the wash
looked out the window...wondering why I can not sleep
praying to fall asleep
back in bed
back out of bed
The dog in
The dog out
and you are sound asleep....
Sunday, July 10, 2011
another busy weekend
boarwalk, swimming, baby shower, watching Noah at football camp, sleeping (in Carson's old swing), shopping, etc...
Saturday, July 9, 2011
finished my post graduate course
with an A. I am going to take a few weeks off before starting the next course. For the past few nights Carson was saying... Mommy when is "our project due"? I pray he is a good (if not great) student.
Friday, July 8, 2011
Getting my bags ready.....
we are leaving for Guatemala the first week of August (lots to pack). Carson and Cinderella are staying with my parents and Best.
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Monday, June 27, 2011
Sunday, June 26, 2011
Busy weekend
Friday afternoon Best, Carson and I went to see Cars 2 at the movie theater. Carson did not move for two hours. His eyes were glued to the big screen. He loved it! However, I on the other hand could not sit still the last half hour. After the movie we went to Red Robin for a late lunch. Carson was not very hungry as he ate a small bag of buttered popcorn during the movie.
Saturday we had a family trip planned to Sesame Place. It was a LONG/HOT day! Carson had a great time on the rides along with playing at the water park for hours.
Sunday we hung at the house as Ms. Cinderella still is not sleeping through the night. However, Carson and I did go to the pool in the afternoon while Jonathan and Cinderella napped. 
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
walk on the boardwalk
Today Carson and I had some one on one time together (greatly needed). So, we decided to take a walk on the Sea Isle Boardwalk (ice cream, pizza, a little arcade). Well, of course its summer time and there are a ton of beautiful people walking the boardwalk in the bathing suites. Anyway, two girls walked by us and Carson said- Mommy, why are the girls wearing their underwear and beers on the boardwalk? I replied, No honey, they are wearing their bathing suites. He quickly replied--- NO Mommy, they are wearing their underwear and beers. He followed up his sentence with "That's GROSS"!
No need to correct him :)
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
First day of Summer
Ahhh, today is the first day of summer. I love the summer time weather. It started off a bit cool however the day ended with perfect weather. Carson and I played on the swing set while Cinderella slept. This evening we enjoyed some pool time at my parents house. Cinderella was being held most of the time by Essie and Best (they were trying to share her) Lol. 
Monday, June 20, 2011
A hard lesson-
The tongue that brings healing is a tree of life, but a deceitful tongue crushes the spirit.
I have been on both ends of this verse-
I have said 'things' to people I really love(d) that was out of pure anger.
To this day the words haunt me.
I have said I was sorry but nothing changed.
I asked for forgiveness but again nothing has changed.
However, when I have been on the receiving end...
I am told to move on and I have-
I've been told to forgive and I am trying-
I've been told to make up and be friends I have tried-
I am so thankful the Lord forgives us... Thank you Lord!
Carson, In life please remember your tongue is the sharpest weapon.
Your tongue can break up relationships.
Your tongue can scar someones heart.
Your tongue can be controlled-
Please think before you speak.
Before you respond with a negative word- pray
Sunday, June 19, 2011
I wish...
I could freeze time
I could help all the children who need loving homes
I could enjoy the moment and not worry about the future
I could hold Carson forever
I could protect Carson's heart
I could record all the moments with Carson
I could relax with him a little more ( I am a nervous Mommy at times)
I could know his future
I could share all my stories with him and he would truly understand how much I love him-
Saturday, June 18, 2011
Not myself
For the past couple of days I have not been myself...
I feel-
very tired
confused about future plans with work, more children, selling our home
songs make me cry
wanting to fit into my jeans again
I need to express my feelings to someone who really hurt me
I am so in love with my children
I need a routine
I need to move on
I can not wait to start riding again
Kyndel is really starting to show her age and it scares me as she has been my faithful companion for years.
Summer is here and I need to enjoy it
I am full of emotions
Will Cinderella..
turn tan like me?
will she have my eyes when she gets older?
do you think she will be my size or smaller?
And the questions begin...
