School pictures

A few weeks ago, I received Carson's school pictures. I can not believe how much my sweet little boy has changed in one year. The first picture is from 2009 and the second picture is from this year.

Jesus told me

Tonight Carson told me that:
Jesus told him he did not have to eat dinner.
Jesus told him he did not have to brush his teeth.
This boy...keeps me smiling.

For Sale

My home is for sale. It is listed on the MLS however I do not have a for sale sign out front. Please pray my home sales quickly. I know, I know the market is crap.... But, there has to be somone out there who needs (wants) a beautiful rancher.

Questions and Answers

I have received a few emails regarding questions about Carson's adoption. So, I thought I would create a question and answer post.

How old was Carson when he came home from Guatemala? Eight Months

Did I meet his Birth Mother? No, However I do have her address, profile and photos.

Where was he born? Guatemala City

Does he have siblings? Yes many.

Will I ever take Carson to meet his birth Mother? Sure, if he wants to...

Do I have any information on Carson's birth Father? Very limited

Was Carson in foster care? Yes.

more to come....

Going back to Guatemala and college

We are traveling back to Guatemala in August as a church group again to work with Chris and Donna Mooney. I had two earlier trips planned however life is going to be changing for us in the near future which will not allow us to travel that far away. I will post more about our changing life in a few weeks. With that being said, I really miss Guatemala. I miss Guatemala as a whole. Today as I was cleaning the horse stalls I was thinking how great it would be to live there for a few weeks. God has a plan for our life....
Well, as of December 6 I will once again be a post graduate college student. I am going to finish my professional counseling degree with a dual degree in Mental Health and School Counseling. If I continue with the class schedule it will take me 2 1/2 years and then I will have 1/2 of residency. I am very excited about this degree as it will open up many avenues for me. My long term goal is to earn my PhD in counseling. As we all know health care is ever changing and I am not the type of person to allow change to occur around me and not do anything about it. I am a very determined person. I am always looking for ways to improve myself. I do not want to be in the 'same' job for 15 plus years. I want to grow, learn and excel. There are many times I have heard people say, I should have gone back to school to be.... I am to0 old for school.... I have to get perfect grades so I can not go to school, raise a family and work...etc. To me they are all excuses. If you really want something nothing will stand in your way.
Sure the above is not going to be easy however neither was earning my MBA or taking the exam to be a Licensed Nursing Home Administrator or adopting as a single parent. However, I truly believe if its the Lords plan he will lead your path. He has led my path many of times. Amen!

He is not a picky eater.

The other day I was listening to a co-worker talk about her son and how picky he was about eating. She asked, is Carson a picky eater? I replied quickly, No he is not... She asked me what does he eat? As I ran down the list in my head I could not believe what a great eater I have.
I am not joking with this list:
yogurt
cottage cheese
All fruits
cheese
pasta
all types of seafood
chicken and turkey
loves lunch meat (I know its not healthy)
beans beans and more beans
pizza
veggies (not lettuce)
eggs
almond milk (his favorite)
pototoes

Halloween superman style

This year Carson was Superman for Halloween. I can not believe how much a mask can change a persons personality. Carson was playing nicely with his castle and trucks however as soon as I said lets put your mask on... Superman Carson was in the house. He was jumping, rolling all over and talking in a real deep voice. He was in complete character. Lol. Jonathan and I escorted Carson to a few houses but he was waiting for 'Best' my sister to take him around the neighborhood. For the past four years Best has taken Carson out trick or treating. Once again, he came back with a bag filled with candy and many funny stories. Thanks Best for making it another fun Halloween.


Wait what was he? not superman...silly, Carson was spiderman. Thanks to my blog buddies for correcting me. lol

I am a puppy dog

Tonight Carson crawled around the house for hours pretending he was a puppy dog. He told me he was kyndel's (my dog) brother. Carson was trying to convince me that he had to sleep in kyndels bed tonight because she was afraid of ghosts. Kyndel and Carson have a love hate relationship. Kyndel is extremely protected of Carson however extremely jealous of him as well. Carson loves kyndel as long as she is doing what he says.

what to get

a sweet little 4 year old boy for Christmas? Wait, he has everything...
What are you getting your children for Christmas this year?

It taste like

Tonight Carson had pumpkin ice cream for his night snack.
Me: carson what does your ice cream taste like?
Carson: Hmmm sugar!

Do you ever have days

where you think-
If I only....
Why did I....
Only if....
what if....
Why....
how do I make it right....
Does he or she ever think of...
now what...

It's that time again...

Carson has an ear infection. He was prescribed an antibiotic for the next seven days. I stayed home today with Carson and I have to say...I think I would make a great stay at home Mom!

Carving contest and help needed

Almost everything we did this weekend involved something with pumpkins. Saturday we went to Cold Spring Village in Cape May for their 19th annual harvest fest. We all had a good time walking around the festival, going on hay ride, and coloring pumpkins. After the harvest fest we went to pick out pumpkins for our annual pumpkin carving contest at my Aunt Sandy's. We enjoyed a very good dinner at my Aunt Sandy's with our cousins. After dinner the contest began... Everyone picks out a different pattern from the pumpkin carving art set. The patterns range from very simple (which I usually do) to extremely hard. The judge (my cousin Bobby) looks inside of your pumpkin. It must be smooth, no seeds, pumpkin strings, etc. So after we are done carving the pumpkins we sit them outside on the porch with a candle inside and the judging begins. I usually go outside for a few minutes however it makes me too nervous while Bobby is judging so I normally go back inside. This years winner was Shauna..... My cousin Joanne is going to forward me a few photos as my camera died Saturday morning. UH!!!
Sunday after church we went to watch Matthew (Carson calls him Mac) our cousin play hockey. I was highly impressed! After the hockey game I took a well needed afternoon nap.
Needing some serious help.... Carson is potty trained with number 1. However he still does number 2 in his underwear. Its a serious problem not just at home in school too. Carson is a very gifted boy (testing has shown)
-Sitting on the potty is a struggle. We read on the potty, sing, etc. He cries and screams.
-We watch Elmo potty training (all the time).
-We have brand new lego sets sitting on the table. If he goes number 2 on the potty he can have a new lego set.
-We have the reward chart on the refrig.
-He sits on he potty at least every 2 hours.
-We talk about pooping all the time. (yuck)
-We have talked about putting diapers back on him like babies. He screams so loud and cries.
- We give him stool softeners in his juice. He will take one sip of the juice and says this is gross. You try it.
Any ideas..... We need prayer!!

40th anniversary and sesame place

Saturday we traveled to Sesame Place for the day. Carson loved every single part of the theme park. He watched all the short shows, loved the rides and his favorite part was the rope climbing play area (wait- I think Jonathan loved the rope climbing play area more). Well, due to the great offer we became season ticket holders for 2010-2011 to sesame place. I am sure we will be making the trip again in the very near future.
Sunday was a busy but beautiful day. On 10/10/10 my parents celebrated their 40th wedding anniversary. Tracey, Joey and I got them a 42 inch LG flat screen TV for their living room. The celebration continued Monday night as we took them out to Ruth Chris Steak House for dinner in Atlantic City. We all had a great time laughing and telling funny stories. The food and serve at Ruth Chris was great! I am sure we will visit again.

On the way home from the barn the other night Carson was talking about the cows and their butters. Jonathan and I just looked at each other and said, butters. What the heck is he talking about? Then Shauna says, Carson do you mean utters? Carson replied, Yea, utters you know the things that milk comes from. HAHA!

melting pot and monster trucks

Well, this is the weekend Carson has been waiting for. Best (My sister Tracey) and Carson went to see the monster truck show on the beach in Wildwood on Saturday night. They left our home around 4pm and Best said they did not arrive back to her home until 11:00pm. Wow, that is a long evening with a four year old however Best said Carson was great and loved it. He must have as he talked about it all day. Thanks Best for spending a special day with Carson.
Anyway, with Carson out for the evening Jonathan and I decided to drive into Atlantic City for dinner. We both have wanted to try the Melting Pot for dinner put could never find the right time. So needless to say, Saturday night was it... The atmosphere was nice the service was good however I was not a fan of the food nor the procedure of cooking (marinating) the food in the pot. I am pretty sure that will be the last time I visit the melting pot.

How inhumane

1 October 2010 Last updated at 22:13 ET Help The president of Guatemala has said the US committed a serious crime when it deliberately infected hundreds of Guatemalans with gonorrhoea and syphilis.
Speaking through a translator, Alvaro Colom told the BBC that he and his country were ''very angry''.
US President Barack Obama has apologised for the medical tests, in which mentally ill patients and prisoners were infected without their consent.

October 1, 2010 Robert Siegel talks with Susan Reverby, professor of women's studies at Wellesley College, about her discovery of a medical experiment conducted by U.S. government scientists in Guatemala in the 1940s. Reverby found that public health officials infected close to 700 Guatemalans with syphilis to see whether the disease could be prevented by penicillin. Reverby came across evidence of the experiment while researching the Tuskegee study.

First day of school photos

Carson's first day of Pre K photos from September 7, 2010

No Cavities

Tonight Carson had his first dentist appointment at the new dentist office in Somers Point with Dr. Mark Raab. We were highly impressed with their customer service along with the way staff walked us through each step. Carson was very cooperative and followed the directions with caution as normal. The dentist office had flat screen t.v.'s above every chair showing disney movies, at least 6 video games in the waiting room, an electric train which traveled round the office, toys and little gifts for the kids to pick out after their cleaning. Carson was able to pick out two gifts for being such a good patient ;)





Carson and Dr. Raab making funny faces.

story telling by Carson

Wordless Wednesday...which brings back a lot of tears

Happy Birthday Best

Today is Tracey's birthday. Carson calls her "Best". He is totally in love with her. They have a great relationship and I pray it continues. Best and Carson usually have a date night once every other week however they see each other weekly. Best and Carson frequent the boardwalk, zoo and their favorite of all favorites once a year Monster Truck show in Wildwood. I asked Carson want he wanted me to type to Best for her birthday so here it goes...
Best,
Happy Birthday. Thank you for my present. Thanks for the Christmas card. I am going to see the monster trucks crash into cars. Thanks for taking me to the monster trucks. That's it.

John 10:9

I am the gate; whoever enters through me will be saved. They will come in and go out, and find pasture.

Awesome stuff!!

look its ice cream

Tonight Carson was eating lasagna for dinner and he says, "look Mommy there is white ice cream in my pasta". Of course I had to look at what he was talking about. I replied with a laugh, "No Carson that's ricotta cheese".

We are meeting with the adoption case worker on September 29, 2010 at 6:00 for our next adoption journey.

Wordless Wednesday

Not feeling like myself

For the past month or so I have not felt like my peppy self. My energy level has been extremely low, I do not want to do anything, I am very sensitive and I am not sleeping at night. When I do fall asleep, I have had some of the most emotional dreams of my past. My dreams have been so vivid. I either wake up in a panic or crying and the rest of the day I am thinking about my dreams. Why? Is it just the month of September? Knowing the cold weather will be quickly approaching? depression? needing a change? unsettled issues? However, I am very thankful for Jonathan as he is very understanding...

Carson started soccer on Monday. Carson did very well (of course he is Guatemalan). He followed directions and kept his manners. That's big stuff for Carson right now as he wants to give the directions not follow them. UH! He is such a LEADER!!

Happy Birthday Uncle Joey

Today is Carson's Uncle Joey's 29 birthday. We all love Joey very much. We do not get to see him as much as we would like however when he is here we have a blast (sometimes lol). As I have mentioned before Joey is a commerical pilot so needless to say every (I mean every) plane that flies by Carson thinks Joey is flying it.
Dear Joey, We wish you a very Happy Birthday. We love you very much! Carson loves playing with you and furthermore he loves when you push him on the swing. I pray that God gives you a healthy year. We miss you so much and love you even more!

Wordless Wednesday

Happy 4th Birthday!

Today we celebrate Carson's 4Th birthday. We had a wonderful birthday prayer for Carson today along with praying for his birth parents. I can not help but to think about how Carson's birth mother is feeling today. I pray the Lord will give her peace and comfort.
Carson, Happy Birthday sweet baby boy. You are growing up so quickly. You are such a blessing to everyone you meet. Your smile and laughter is contageous. You are a quick learner, you love to read, complete puzzles, you want to play every sport, you swim like a fish, and love playing video games. With that being said, Carson, you have a temper that goes from 0-60 in 3 seconds. It's wild! At times you have difficulty controlling your hands and mouth when you get mad. You are working on it and we truly hope its just your age. You are a very determined young boy. You like to do everything yourself. You will only ask for help when you really, really need it.
I pray you have a wonderful year. That you continue to be healthy and strong. I can not wait to watch what the Lord has in store for you this year. I continue to pray for the Lord's guidance with being your Mommy. I know I am not always the best Mommy to you however I love you with every inch of my being. Carson you will never know how much you have changed my life. You are a true gift! I wish you the happiest birthday I love you sweet baby boy!

I would like you to meet...

my new show horse "Majik Moment" aka Majik. He is a dream! Carson loves to brush him.

Happy Birthday Dad

On August 27 we celebrated my Dad's__ birthday. My Dad and I have a very special relationship. For as long as I can remember my Dad has been my best friend. I could write forever all the reasons I love my Dad. However I decided to list in no particular order many "things" about my Dad.
Here I go...
1. I can call him whenever I need to vent, cry, laugh or just plain talk.
2. He ALWAYS listens.
3. We both love dogs.
4. He helps me take care of my horses.
5. He has been coaching little league baseball for over 30 plus years.
6. He is very active.
7. We can sit and people watch for hours.
8. He wears the oldest worn out jeans and tee shirt when going to buy a car.
9. He loved his Mom and Dad very deeply.
10.Carson loves his poppop
11. He was there for me in my darkest days.
12. During my darkest days/nights I could call him anytime and cry on the phone and he would just listen.
13. He takes great pride in his yard.
14. During the summer I can usually find him in the garden.
15. He is moodier than me!
16. We have deep conversations about the Lord.
17. He is very hard working.
18. My Dad has never turned on a computer.
19. We have favorite songs.
20. If I hear one of our favorite songs on the radio I will call him and play it really loud.
21. He drove me to most of my horse shows on Saturdays and Sundays.
22. We both love to hear people laugh.
23. He served in Vietnam.
24. My cousins love to ride the go-carts under the boardwalk with him.
25. We talk on the phone 3 to 4 times a day.
26. He normally has the best advice.
27. When I was younger I use to think he was the strongest Dad in the world (wait I still do).
28. He is always there for me.
29. He is my Dad and I love him.