Conversation between Carson and Jonathan

Carson: Hey Dad, let’s see what you have in your Easter Basket

Me: Naw, I’m good buddy, I don’t want any chocolate

Carson: Well, that’s ok, let’s just see what you have.

Me: Ok

Carson: Wow, Dad, look what you have. This big chocolate egg. You’re going to like it because its chocolate.

Me: Thanks, buddy, but I don’t want any chocolate.

Carson: Well, let’s just open it up and see the nice chocolate inside-oooh, that is soo good. You’re going to like it. Here you go Dad, it’s for you, it’s chocolate.

Me: Ok, Carson. Thanks. (I take a bite). Here, do you want some.

Carson: Oh, thanks Dad. I love chocolate. It’s sooo good.

Me: You really worked this whole plan out didn’t you buddy?

Carson: Yeah, coz I know da rules (as he smiles a sly grin).

Wordless Wednesday baby bump

struggling....

Have you ever tried to work in areas where you struggle?
Are you strong enough to admit you struggle? I am...

I struggle at being a good wife.
I struggle at being a parent (Mom).
I struggle with not tell people how I really feel.
I struggle with letting go of someone who really hurt me.
I struggle with allowing people to fully enter into my life.
I struggle with guarding my heart.
I struggle with two face people...
I struggle with being a christian at times.
I struggle with understanding why people have to hurt others to get what they want...
I struggle with people who "think" they know me however they do not even have a clue.
I struggle with people who try to buy my love or friendship.
I struggle with fake people.
I struggle everyday... I thank God everyday for helping me through my struggles...

37 days to go...

I think my heart just skipped 20 beats.... My emotions are like the weather forecast. Every day they are completely different. I am very excited about the arrival of the baby however extremely nervous and full of anxiety. Currently the baby weights 4lbs 12 ozs and is doing great! Carson loves to touch and kiss my belly. We still have not picked out the car seat and stroller. We are hoping to purchase a the combo set this week(if I can decide on the color and brand,LoL.)

wordless wednesday

I love you, baby!

I am so in love with my little guy "Carson". Today, I was leaving for work and Carson kissed me goodbye and said, I love you, baby!

Carson's post to Best..

The below is directly from Carson's mouth...

Best,
Thanks for taking me out today. I had fun with the barbie song and playing with your friend Alicia. I can not believe I got a chocolate bunny. Mommy can I have some more of the bunny? Bye Best I love you more...

An outing with Best

Carson spent the afternoon with Best (my sister). They went to the local recreation Easter egg hunt where Carson won a chocolate bunny and collected a handful of plastic eggs. Then off to the county park to visit the animals and play on the playground. Carson absolutly LOVES his Best- I pray Carson and Best relationship continues to grow. They sure do have a very special connection. Thank you Best!

wordless wednesday

Life has gone on...

I still think of you..
I wonder where you are....
I wonder what you are doing...
Do you ever think of us....
Have you ever wanted to meet Carson...
Have you ever wanted to send an email or a letter...
Have you ever wanted to rewind times....
Have you ever wanted to do it over again....

block patch test

On Saturday Carson received his second patch in karate. The second patch is called the block patch. Carson had to learn and demonstrate four different blocks without assistance. He did great on the first try!

do you really know me...

If you really want to get to know someone you need to:
ask questions
spend quality time
listen
care
have special dates with that person
be there
call them out of the blue
tell them you care
do not judge them
do not brag about yourself
drop a card in the mail

wordless wednesday

on the what?

Carson: Hey Mommy- I put Kyndel to bed says
Me: really?
Carson: yes I covered her up...do not yell at her Mommy she fell asleep on the couch.
Me: carson you know kyndel is not allowed on the couch.
Carson: but Mommy I told her it was ok
Me: Carson
Carson: but Mommy she needs to be comfy too.

A pregnant photo finally...

WOW! Is that really me? Yup, it's me at 31 weeks pregnant and off to work.

31 weeks tomorrow...

This week, your baby measures over 16 inches long. He weighs about 3.3 pounds (try carrying four navel oranges) and is heading into a growth spurt. He can turn his head from side to side, and his arms, legs, and body are beginning to plump out as needed fat accumulates underneath his skin. He's probably moving a lot, too, so you may have trouble sleeping because your baby's kicks and somersaults keep you up. Take comfort: All this moving is a sign that your baby is active and healthy.
Carson is so excited for the baby to arrive. He was talking about the baby sitting next to him at the dinner table. :) He is going to be an awesome big brother!

Big brown eyes looking at me...

In the cutest little voice while rubbing my belly-
Carson says, Mommy, when is the baby going to come out?
Me: Soon Omie (That's what I call him)
Carson: So you will go to the hospital and they will take your baby out?
Me: That's right!
Carson: I can not wait.

He melts my heart :)

will my love be different...

I have a few questions that I have pondered over the last seven months. I have researched, asked professionals and prayed. Below is a list of questions I have- can you help me from either your experience and/or knowledge?

1. Will my love for the baby be "different" from the love I have for Carson?
2. Will I still view Carson the same way?
3. Will there be a "different" type of bonding with the baby?

Carson loves to put things together

infections

phew! Carson has a double ear infection, sinus infection and his heart murmur has shown its ugly head again. We will be heading back to children's hospital next week to see the cardiologist.

wordless wednesday- game night

What a tough guy!

registration

Kindergarten registration?! I can not believe it-
My sweet little boy is going to kindergarten this year. OMG! His current teachers feel he is acamdically ready however he still has some maturing to do. :) Carson will be a young 5 year old as his birthday is 9/6/06. Do I send him or hold him back for one year?

back on the market

We took our house off the market in September due to the lack of buyers in the area. However we have decided to put the house back on the market under "for sale by owner" in April. We are truly praying our house will sell as we are really out growing it.
I bought Carson a Toshiba net book a few months ago. He is amazing on the computer. He loves to play PBS kids at night while I am doing my homework for graduate school. I love to watch his little fingers navigate the keyboard.

can you handle it and woes

Its been really hard for me in life to let God fight my battles as I have "always" wanted to be in control. However for the past x months I have given something over to the Lord and asked him to handle it (which has been difficult for me). There were plenty of times where I could have gone running to others and started gossiping about how "one" was treating me or trying to sabotage me as a person/ professional. However, ever time I started an email, dialing a phone number or sitting cross for an individual that I could share how I was feeling the Lord reminded me " you told me to handle it." I would reply in a short prayer, "I know, Lord." Well, everything happens in his timing and he took care of it to the point I asked him to ease up and show a little mercy. I was reminded by a friend that the Lord does not like liars, people who put others down, or those that hurt his children to make themselves look better.
The woes of a 4 1/2 year old boy:
- He thinks he is a superhero.
- My furniture becomes a jumping bag.
- He always wants to use my cell phone to play games or call Best or MomMom.
- He likes to talk back and always wants the final word.
- His hands and feet become weapons when he gets mad.
- He wants and thinks he is a doctor to our dog Kyndel.
- He knows what he wants and there is NO way around it.
- If you kiss him- he wipes it off and says ew girl lips.
- He wants to play football and baseball in the house.
- There are hundreds of match box cars, action figures and lego's in every room, every crevice and every corner of the house.
- He does not understand the word no or stop.
- His finger nails are dirty every time he comes back for the horse stable as he is digging for worms.
- He runs around in his batman and superman costume all day long.

26 weeks

and feeling great! Carson told me at dinner " Mommy you better stop eating. If not your belly will pop".

When Mommy?

Carson has been asking a huge number of questions regarding the baby. However the biggest question is "when".
When is the baby coming to stay with me?
When will your belly pop so the baby can come out?
When are you going to the hospital for the baby?
In a few months the tide will turn... Carson will be asking when is the baby leaving my house. LOL

Life goes on....

Life has been so busy lately. We have been really busy planning our next mission trip to Guatemala which is scheduled for August 2011. Essie (my mom) is going to watch Carson and the baby while we are in Guatemala. I am truly looking forward to traveling back to Guatemala. I really should be planning for the baby to come instead of Guatemala however I start to get really nervous every time I think about buying items for the baby.

As for Carson he received his first karate badge last Saturday (of course I forgot the camara). He loves karate however we do not like all the karate chopping at home. But, he is really learning to follow directions and pay attention during class even if there are other kids messing around.
The other day in the car I asked Carson if he would help me with the baby. He replied like what…
The conversation:
Me: Help feed the baby?
Carson: No not that green stuff (pea’s in the jar)
Me: Help give the baby a bath?
Carson: The baby gets baths in your belly
Me: Help change the baby?
Carson: No way- yuck
Me: Read to the baby?
Carson: Yea, I am good at that
Me: Play with the baby?
Carson: Yea, like batman, the wii, lego’s. That will be fine.

Just go with it

Yes, I am still here. I was not on the computer much last week as I was having computer issues. Tomorrow I am 24 weeks pregnant. I can not believe how fast the pregnancy is going... I am due the first week of June. It will be here before I know it. Can you say NERVOUS?! As I have said before I really have never held or cared for a newborn baby. I do not know the first thing about a newborn. Carson was eight months old when he came home and I was on the phone with Essie (my Mom) or my sister every hour or at my parents home trying to get a handle at being a parent. PHEW!!!
My husband (Jonathan) is an excellent support system. If he could give birth for me he would. Matter of fact he will probably try to breast feed. (lol) Do not tell him I said that-
Last week Carson told me I was going to have a boy or a girl... Really?! Carson loves to rub my belly. He talks to the baby all the time and has some very interesting questions about being pregnant.
Friday night Jonathan and I went to see Just go with It with two of my all time favorite actors- Jennifer Aniston and Nicole Kidman. The movie was cute!

How many?

Today my sweet little boy got 4 (yes 4) shots plus the flu mist. UGH!
MMR
Varicella
DTAP
IPV
Flu Mist
Carson looked at the physician with his big brown eyes and said, "please no more".